GOODBYE
Sunday 5 January 2014

For those who still visit this unfrequented blog or happened to chance upon it after a period of time, I have moved to dayre.me/syairazihilmi. This blog had been good to me for the past 5 years; the good, bad, happy, sad, joyous and disappointing moments I have shared here, they have been, at times, newsworthy. And on other occasions, they're just therapeutic.
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PRESSURE
Sunday 24 November 2013

My mind has been occupied as of late. I'm dazed most of the time, it feels like I'm sleepwalking.

At work, I've been making errors that were far too glaring. It happened too often in a day that I feel ashamed to call myself a pharmacy assistant. I'm going to receive my confirmation in 3 weeks but I somehow feel like I hardly deserve it. With such unforgivable errors, it's not difficult to understand why.

On a brighter note, my colleagues make the working environment at KK as comfortable as it is enjoyable. They are the reasons why time seems to fly by very quickly.

I'm also feeling the pressure of the weight of friendship(s) pressing down on me. I feel 2 out of my 4 best friends drifting away from me. On my part, I still hold on to belief;  a belief that I'm still somebody to them as they are to me. Having said that, I'll never give up on them come what may. Thankfully, the other 2 are people who never fail to put me in their calendars.
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In A Heartbeat
Saturday 26 October 2013

If you happen to read this, you'll know I'm writing this just for you.

I'm not too blind to see that you've not been yourself as of late. The way you talked to me, your tweets and your blog post; it all tell me something but I just can't point it out. The only reason I've stopped asking is coz I'm afraid that you'll be annoyed with the constant "are you okay". Truth is, I'm still every bit concerned about you. It burns me a little inside everytime I have to settle with your "I'm fine", though I very well know that that is not the case.

Yes, we're busy with our own lives now. Yes, we're walking different paths now. Yes, we've met a whole lot of new people. But that doesn't make you any less important. You're still as significant in my life (and every other close friends of yours I'm sure). We haven't left you alone. We're just confident that you'll find your way. But believe me, if ever you need us, just let us know. Coz we're willing to break track and come to your aid.. in a heartbeat. =)

On a less important note; believe it or not, like my other 3 best friends, I've always enjoyed talking to you. And I'll get that same excitement when I'm meeting you too.

I hope you'll find yourself again. And if you don't, I'm always here to lend you a listening ear. CHEER UP OKAY! =)
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Saturday 14 September 2013

I've just resigned from National University Hospital (NUH) on the 12th of September. 

So what's next in store for me?

Back to my comfort zone, I'll be working as a Pharmacy Assistant at KK Women's and Children's Hospital (KKH). I wouldn't say I'm excited at the prospect but it will give me financial security over the next couple of years until I decide whether or not to pursue a degree.

I have 2 options; to take up a part-time degree or follow my brother to the UK and brave the endless road of hell to get that prized piece of paper. On an uneventful note, maybe I won't even be pursuing a degree at all.

For now, I'm happy just to take one step at a time.


Dear heart, you've done enough damage over the last 5 years. Please do not attempt to fall for anyone else. Thank you

Labels: #degree, #job

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